Possible experience or in my head?
Thursday night Mar 20
I was sitting on my bed thinking about my ps3 and what game i was going to play. Now this is usually nothing special, but while I was thinking, I started to hear a pulse in my ears, almost as if I could hear my own pulsating bloodflow. Weird I know. The only place I know of is a room that is -2 decibel. Hallucinations start with 45 minutes of being in the room. Now I was no where near this room (as it is somewhere in the northern part of the us and I live in the south). There should be no way that I should hear that. About 5 – 10 minutes after it started, I saw a discoloration in my room. It was faint at first and then it molded into what looked like a fuzzy ouline of a human that was extremely tall. Then it gets even weirder. I saw the outline of eyes and a mouth of a beautiful woman formed where the head area should have been. The eyes open and i stared into them for about 5 minutes. The lips curled into a smile. and only one word entered my thoughts. I say word, but it was a name. A name i had never knew until after I joined the site. Lakesh. Now I am no one special. I don’t think I have ever been visited. I dont even think I am special enough to get the attention of the friends in the colonies. So why would someone come to me and tell me that name?
Things like this don’t happen to me. This is the first of it’s kind. So I wonder, was it really all in my head, or did I really get visited and given the name?
I asked max, and this is what he replied to me:
Sounds pretty typical. I had only one experience like this, but this was clear and I trusted it was real.
I can only guess it was a test to see if you are ready for more. Maybe they also were tuning up their equipment.
I would interpret this – ”I am not allowed to say anything meaningful, but ask Lakesh – he will explain more”.
I suggest you report your experience and my answer for others to see.
Also ”Lakesh” means ”another you”. Maybe it was your other incarnation.
From his reply, it sounds very possible that it was real. But my other incarnation, as a woman? I don’t understand that as well as why would this being just say, ‘Lakesh’ then fade away?
Any thoughts on this?????
Friday Mar 21
Me and heath started to hang out. We did our usual, video games, deep conversations, etc. We were at my house, in my shed (it is where I smoke cigarettes because niether of my parents smoke, and I want to be as respectful to their wishes as I can) My shed has held deep conversations, not only between me and heath, but between me and a multitude of people, kind of like heath’s front porch. Nothing really special happened this night, except for the waves of energy down my spine.
Sunday Mar 23
Another experience that I had was only a few days later. I was with Heath (who is also on human colony). We stood on his front porch having a deep conversation (as hundreds have happened on his front porch, don’t ask me why, it is a trend I noticed) when both of us started to fell a bit off. In the western sky was a light that was rapidly changing colors. It was rotating the colors faster than the colors of a twinkling star. Neither of us think that it was a star, planet, or any other natural universal object in the sky. After we had noticed it, both of us started to feel happy, joyous inside, and our minds were put to ease about the problems in the world. However, it stopped there with heath. He couldn’t stop smiling and feeling joy. I however, started felling a tingling sensation run down my spine in waves. Almost like a pulse generator in sci-fi movies (e.g. the tower that has llops of energy running up to the top to be dispersed, it is the best visual I can think of for this). Wave after wave of this tingling sensation went from the top of mine spine, all the way to the the base. My legs became like spaghetti. I had to sit because I could no longer stand up. After about 5 minutes, it passed. We continued our conversation and after about 10 minutes, it happened again, the exact same way.
After this particular one, I came home and got back on the site. I noticed the update to the site about utopia5 (it really does need a new name, utopia is a false place here on earth, so if utopia is false here on earth, I dont want that connected with our friends from a planet with the same name). I re applied to the site. I was unsure the first time on what exactly to put on the application. So seeing the invitation, I reapplied. But this time, I explained who I was, how I have walked my lifes path to present day, leaving nothing that I could think of that would be important out. could it actually be because I reapplied instead of just waiting????
Monday Mar 24
Last night we hung out yet again for the 5th day in a row. Both of us were yet again in another deep conversation. When we left my house, nothing special seemed to be happening. About 30 minutes after we left, I noticed my thoughts had slightly changed, as well as heath noticed his had changed as well. Was someone implanting these thoughts? I can’t say, for neither me or heath really understood it. We went to get food, and then went for a drive. Driving is my ultimate relaxation without falling asleep. It must remain focused while at the wheel, but I have never really felt sleepy. Driving calms me down, so I usually only go for a drive through the country on 1 of 2 reasons. It is a new area, I am exploring (just like my father) or I need to get away from the stress and anger and the negativity that surrounded me (just like my mother). Last night neither of those things were present, but I had the thought to go driving. I drove a road that I knew, and was secluded. I like to be alone alot. As I have always felt different and unconnected to almost everyone around me. Heath is the 2nd person I have ever felt any type of true connection with. (I think the first that I did, was only a catalyst to get me and heath together, cause without the two of us as close as we were, I dont think me and heath ever would have met). Well as we drove, he startled himself saying ‘if I tell you to pull over, you should pull over.’ he questioned that himself. I was joking around and saying, because both of us want to go so bad, ‘you know heath, if they really did want us, after the next 5-10 minutes will be the perfect time for it.’ Now keep in mind, i was JOKING. I kept driving. soon after my eyes started to slightly burn, then water. without me saying ANYTHING to heath, ‘ojay, you should pull over’ The timing, both of us agree, was too perfect. I had driven for about 4 minutes (a very short time) before my eyes started to burn and at 5 minute mark, I couldnt drive, so I pulled over, right before that, heath said what he said. We both were feeling waves down our spines. The moment I parks and shut the car off, my eyes cleared up. No water, no burning, nothing. Almost as if I was under a spell that when the cicumstances were met, it released its grip. Both of us got out of the car. we looked around. we could see the glow of towns and the lights of country houses, however, we were miles from any type of building or civilization. The stars were beautiful, and we could see the arm of the milky way gases. Then things started happening. Flashes of lights all around the sky (mostly planes but there were many that I couldnt identify as a plane or not, and a couple I knew were not planes what-so-ever). The wind died and we heard a low rumble, but felt nothing. the rumbling stopped suddenly. almost as if it was a machine that was on, and it was instantly stopped. the rumble just dissapeared. After that, we felt it getting colder, and the wind slightly gained strength. I was getting cold so I moved to the car. Heath agreeed and followed. Here is where it starts to get slightly murky. I was in and out of conciousness, but I never left my car. Heath became paralyzed, as if something had ahold of his body. I had to take his cig from his hand because he couldnt move. He blacked out a couple times and he was afraid that he couldnt move. He was also talking, in an extremly quiet tone. I could barely hear him when I started to regain full conciousness. I cannot tell you what he experienced, as I cannot get in his head to know that. I can, however, relate what he told me after:
‘Dude, I was paralyzed. I couldn’t move. Why didn’t you shake me when I yelled your name?”
‘dude, you didn’t yell’
No I yelled at you 7 or 8 times!
It was all quiet from my ears.
That was the immediate conversation when he could move again.
He had felt paralyzed. Someone or something had entered his body. He was afraid because he couldn’t move. he told me that in his head all he could hear was do not be afraid, everything is going to be ok. over and over again. He said that it wasnt just one entity that enter his body, but several. Now this is where it gets weird for me. with the experiences I had the last week, and the constant sensations down my spine. only a single name entered my head. I don’t know if I like where it is going. ‘El’ Why would the names of high spirits (for lack of better description for El on my part) and of top people in the colonies (Lakesh) be given to me, when there is nothing else to be explained.
But that is in a nutshell what me and heath have been experiencing in the last week. Very rarely when we are alone does these things happen. And now that we rely on each other more than we have ever before, these things start happening.
Last night as we parted ways, there was only one question that could be made into many. Why?
Why?
Why us?
Why now?
Why when almost only when we are together now?
Why the names I was given?
Why our thoughts?
That is the only question we truly have, is why?
So, now that you all have heard what me and Heath have been up to the last week, any thoughts from you all about it??????????